Clutter.

I always forget how many facets conditions like fibromyalgia can have. I've reminded myself of this repeatedly over the last two weeks, as I have run myself so ragged that I haven't had time to blog.

It all started when I decided that the time was right to find a more convenient premises than A New Leaf, and move into the Regus building, which is something I have been considering for a long time. The idea of this is that if I am located somewhere like Kings Hill I can treat local office workers and Mums, for whom A New Leaf is simply not convenient. Even if it is a spectacular oasis of calm. In order to streamline as much as possible, whilst still carrying everything I needed, I went through my large case and cleared out all of the stuff that I don't use any more. There was a surprisingly large amount of it. And everything felt much better for getting rid of unnecessary clutter.

This inspired me to get rid of more unnecessary clutter in my life. I've had a good clear out (okay, well not a good clear out, but it's a start) in my back room, and put a load on ebay. It'll feel good to have a bit of space back, and a few more pennies in my purse will feel even better. And hopefully this will pave the start of a good habit for me, and I will be able to keep my physical space free of clutter.

Of course, it's not just physical clutter that can make a fibromyalgic feel rough. I'm sure many of you are familiar with the feeling of fibro fog. For those of you who aren't, this is a feeling of fog on the brain, that makes your brain move slowly, words seem outside of your grasp, and any kind of mental faculty something you can only dream of. And, sadly, clearing the clutter out of your mind is not as easy as clearing it out of your home. I find a bit of meditation can really help, but sometimes the clutter feels so thick that any amount of sitting quietly cannot give you space to clear your mind. And I feel like this has been the case for me recently.

My personal goal for this week is to find a little bit of time every day to zone out and meditate. I will clear my mind of errant thoughts, and focus on a slow progression of numbers counting from 1 to 10. Every time a sneaky thought pops into my brain, I will thank it and ask it to return later when it is more convenient. I don't know if I will make it to 10. It's an exercise I find very difficult. But one thing I can be sure of is that if I practise every day I will find it much easier by the end of the week than I did at the beginning.